Now begins our winter of Discontent

It's been several years since I've touched this account because honestly, I thought things had taken a turn for the better. I was wrong. We have been subject to a second 45 term from here he's more hell-bent in vengeance than addressing the issues that are facing the nation. I did not vote for Elon Musk to run ramshackle through our democratic systems taking a chainsaw to them. I've been on the receiving end of anti american sentiment from other countries that I don't deserve because even though I disagree with the current administration I still somehow to blame for it?? I voted for Harris. I wanted to keep far away from what I knew would be a disaster. 

It's taking a toll mentally and physically. I have developed a need to check my phone constantly while on break from tasks I need to take care of and after working on them and when I'm ready to sleep at night the phone comes with me and I spend time doom scrolling waiting for the next shoe to drop. I constantly fear that I will be taken from my home for being on medications that help make me a protective member of society and sent to one of the proposed "wellness camps" that the current director of the HHS has in mind for the goal of "reparenting" and having me off scripts I have a genuine need for. I have nightmares. 

I'm afraid access to vaccines will waiver and fully expect the covid vaccine to disappear completely and I rely on that to help reduce the chances of giving it to my parents whom are immunocompromised.

I worry about cuts to the VA because my father relies on them for healthcare we spent years fighting to get. 

It's getting harder to take care of myself because I've been in the longest rheumatoid arthritis flare I've had since being diagnosed. I'm constantly fighting the urge to sleep and subsist on energy drinks to keep me awake. 

I knew things were going to be bad if 45 was elected again. I was hoping that people might steer 45 away from P25 but our politicians are plowing through full steam ahead. 

I sit in front of digital copies of books on how to grow/store your own food and prepping for disaster. It's the only way I see to survive this administration. They're unread. I'm too tired. This is just the beginning of more blogs to come, this is simply what has been on my mind today. All for now

~~Minka